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Saturday, July 21, 2007

i feeling tired of everything now!

why was it so misleading of wat i wrote?

the dream i had was short and sweet and i had woke up from it...
me and my ex nine months 2gether, broke off with an unexplained reason... a call from him, explained everything.. after 4 years a reason i been waiting... finally given... everything was officially over at that point of time...

he wanted me to choose he or dear?
2 years... dear been there in my heart,what there to be choosen from... there always been one only...

felt sorry for both...
dear i hide all these from u, i felt sorry... i was scare his reaction after knowing... (now i know le)
ex, i felt sorry, i didnt know at the point of we broke up wat u been thru... sorry....and my feeling for u had changed... sorry....

who my future be?
it open to everyone! i dont know my future... i have no confident in this word! i had always been... to me future was something unpredictable.... even if u had make a very well organised plan of future.. i never thought that ur future will nicely be acheived as wat it planned by u...
me and dear 2 years of relationship... dear u keeping say u wants to marry me,..planned all etc...
but right now at this moment of time, me and u, we had nothing but just love for each other... marriage to me, was not just love alone..... i need bread too... now we dont have...that wat i so uncertain of...really! i know dear, u been working hard toward tat dream... went back to study, having a higher education lvl....hoping to get a stable job...all i knew wat dear was striving hard for! but i am still insecure of it... but i didnt give up... i stll here with u... jus tat the insecure part of me will only be certain till we are really marry...

u sent me sms saying u are uncomfortable seeing my blog... wat i mean writing t? wat i am really thinking? u dont know? i had written it all out now... if u still dont know wat i am thinking... tell me wat u feel bout me now? wat u want from me? wat u going to do?

me and u... ?