always.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

went to watch *300* again... ya, again..this time round is with yanni and of cos my dear too...

actual planned to watch "the pursuit of happiness"...

i really wanted to watch this movie so so so so so so so much!

when it not even out..think b4 CNY..i already told dear i wanted to watch, even asked him to pei me watch..he say ok ok... DEN... he never brings me to a movie which i wanted to watch! NEVER!... k, there once which is "happy fleet"..somemore is i beg, sa jiao a few time/ days den he finally brought me to tat movie! ...

he say i am always very selfish never think of him whenever i do things..then him leh? everytimes i say i want to watch this movie or wat..he will say i da bai, stupid, dumb dumb, whatever movies i choose to watch which he dont like are all rubbish movie

my heart hurt!

the words he said it really HURT!

the girlfriend standard of his...it too high for me to reach..really too high...i did try to reach...but it never reaches me...not once... i am always getting scolding from him! like there really no any good points of me... i just bad...nobody likes to get scold everydays... i had my pride... i had my limits!

i am tired... how much longer can i hang it there? who going to change? he or me? did i ever say my piece of mind to him? had him listen to me b4? or i jus really not to standard tat he wants? am i tat bad? does him really understand me? or do i really think i understand him? or is it jus a misunderstanding btw us? lots of qns..REALLY!

will u be reading this?

i'm scare of telling u face-to-face...

*dear called*

.: I CRIED :.

problem solved... dont ask me... my ans will be i dont know? whats holding me there now was... dear did treat me well..very well...jus like a princess in his palm...

we going to be 2gether for 2 years soon...

hope things get well..

i really hope!

whatever gods that seeing these... can give me ur blessing?

*I love u dear*